I'm Back...

and more confused than ever by this whole weight loss thing. God it just doesn't make sense. Let me recap last week (quickly, because it's not pretty): I stayed in my blah mood until Friday. On Tuesday night I ate out with my family and I had chicken, mashed potatoes (although Rebecca is my witness that I tried to order brown rice and they were out) and a beer. On Wednesday night we ate at some friends' house and I had probably 3 glasses of wine, but wasn't too bad on food because they made a fabulous and healthy chicken dish. On Thursday I was driving home from school and was CRAVING fast food. I never crave fast food. So I called Chris and we met at a restaurant and I had a burger and fries and 2 beers. And some chicken tenders. Told you last week got ugly. On Friday night we went to a Mexican place and I had nachos. On Saturday night we went to the Texas Steakhouse and I had a burger and fries and rolls (holy crap those were good rolls). Sunday I was completely back OP and for dinner cooked Roni's turkey meatballs with pasta and gravy. I was proud of getting back OP, but was prepared for what the scale would show today. Or was trying to be prepared. The only exercise I did was a 3 mile walk with Kelley on Saturday (which totally kicked my butt - Kelley, I'm STILL sore from that walk!). So I thought I was prepared to accept what the scale showed.

You know what I was NOT prepared for? Are you ready?? A 2.4 lb LOSS. WTF???? I actually made her check it again and when I got home I checked it against my scale as well. The WW scale showed 223.8. My scale at home showed 222.8. I just don't understand. I called my Mom and she did, reluctantly, agree that it made no sense. I just don't get it. I don't know what to do with that loss. That is the 2nd highest loss I have had since I started this back in November. You know what my highest loss was? A 2.6 lb loss my first week on WW. Since then, the week I worked my ASS off I had a 2.2 loss. And now I have probably the worst week I've had and I have an incredible loss. This goes way beyond not deserving it. This just blows my mind. Mom asked what I wanted her to say, that she was sorry I had a 2.4 lb loss? Okay, point taken. We both agreed that my goal for this next week is going to have to be to just maintain. And I am probably going to have to work really hard to just maintain. I have to admit that's not a real uplifting thought.

So, wow. I can't really celebrate this loss. I don't know what to do with it. I am back OP today as well as yesterday and am getting all my water in and am going to get exercise in this week.

I have so much more to talk about, but I just can't take this in quite yet. I know, Mom, I know. I'm supposed to still be happy about it. I mean, what, am I going to be upset that I lost 2.4 lbs this week?? But, wow....